SonicandTails58

Something about me seems... a bit off... Ever since I got my learner's permit, I've been happy. It's seriously strange how a piece of plastic can change me so much. Hell, I've actually been on good terms with my dad for the first time in what feels like years. I haven't wanted him to die, or me to die nearly as often as I used to... This is unreal. I could not have nearly 180'd my entire personality overnight... But everything points to it... I don't feel like this is who I really am, but I have to accept the fact that things are getting better for once in my fucking life... It just sucks that I lost almost everything that matters to me, an

It's all so clear now.. I thought I would never be able to move on, but literally a day after expressing my pain, I find myself at a crossroads. Do I continue down the path of Stage 4, or do I finally change something in my life, and continue onward to Stage 5? I know what I've done in the past isn't me at my greatest, but I'm 16 years old now. What I did in the past is just that: in the past. I have no reason to dwell on those events any longer. No more Stage 4 over that event anymore. I've moved on to stage 5: Acceptance. I have finally come to terms that things won't be the same any more, but I'm perfectly okay with that now. It's hard to

Well, I was just at the old desk I accessed good ol' Pesterchum from back about a year ago.. Completely forgot I left a Playstation 2 controller on the desk from my spring break complete playthrough of Kingdom Hearts 2... Point being, I returned to the desk, and I nearly broke down and cried. Nearly being the key word here, which, I'm not sure is  bad thing, but I'm also not sure it's a good thing either.. I really need to accept the fact that nothing is going to change... But for the love of all that is holy, WHY? What is preventing me from moving on? Why can't I just accept that fact? I have often contemplated just crying out this pain, but